1. |
Looking Back
03:36
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Looking back through the window of a 747, Looking back through a window of time
Looking back all the world’s a stage, behind the Orange Curtain
Nothing’s for certain but to straighten out and fall in line
I can still see the child in the tall grass, holding back the years
I can still hear the barking of authority, ringing in my ears
I have found my call to arms to make us proud to stand above the crowd
I can still feel her sweet arms around me and taste her tears
I can see a bright future from this silver bullet to the sun
Gonna be all that I can be, and maybe more when this war is won
Gonna show that shiny badge just what I’m made of, there’s nothing I’m afraid of
Gonna rock that desert sand, gonna roll the tanks and give thanks before the day is done
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2. |
Coming Home
01:53
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Hell has a name: Fallujah, or maybe it was Ramadi
Hell is ringing in my ears, slowly giving voices to all my fears
Hell has a face: I see it in the mirror, but I don’t recognize it
And hell isn’t gone. I know I’ll carry it with me my whole life long
I’m coming home
I’m coming home
I’m coming home
I’m coming home
Hell is ringing in my ears, slowly giving voices to all my fears
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3. |
Silver Bullet
04:20
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Getting back on my feet, hitting the street
Cruising Harbor Boulevard
Got the sun on my face: I’m back in the race
Nothing’s gonna slow me down
Nothing seems to thrill me, but the war didn’t kill me
So I guess I’ll head to Huntington Beach
Nothing is the same, but I know my real name
I’m a 21st century man.
I’m gonna find a silver bullet tonight
To shoot me to the top of the wave
So honey sit beside me and hold on tight
We’re gonna find a lucky silver bullet tonight
It’s been another manic day, in another tragic way
But I’m gonna crush this time on my hand
The nightmares are a bitch and I can’t remember which
Way to go when I walk out the door
I need something to believe, or maybe someone to deceive
To get my mojo back on track
So let’s head down the coast and try to make the most
Of the day before the sun goes down
It’s a magic revolution
A spiritual solution
A silver bullet for my soul
It’ll keep the demons out
As I kill off all the doubt
Universe make me whole
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4. |
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So you want a house in country fields
Dividends with high yields
You want the sky and the stars
Lots of girls and fine cars
“Sign here on dotted line
Again on page 59
Initial what’s in-between
Sit back and don’t scream.”
Welcome to the American dream
Nothing is the way it would seem
Claw your way to middle ground
Don’t let the bastards hold you down
Don’t you want to have some more?
Listen up, I’ll sell you the score
Someone said that you’d have it all
No one said that you couldn’t fall
Soon you got a 2nd and 3rd
“No’s” a word that you’ve never heard
Then they changed the rules to the game
Now you’ll never be the same
It’s all here to buy as you will
Just be sure to pay the bill
Dreams are never simple and true
Especially when the dream owns you.
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5. |
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I’ve waited far too long for you to see
How deep the chasm is between you and me
You’ve been outside of my world for so long
We’ve got nothing left to hold us strong
I’m waiting, I’m waiting
I’m fighting a war inside my head
One that can’t be lost or won
But I’m trying to show you I can change
For you and the sake of love
I’ve been waiting for the pieces to fit
Looking for a way to get out of this shit
I’m flying hard, but I’m standing right here
Just don’t say you get my problems, dear
I’m waiting, I’m waiting
You’re fighting a war inside your head
With voices I can’t see or hear
I don’t know how much more I can take
For you and the sake of love
That’s it, I’m done. I’ve got to get away
I’m through just waiting down the day
I’m getting out, baby I’m moving on
I can’t breathe and my heart is almost gone
You’re fighting a war inside your head
With voices I can’t see or hear
I don’t know how much more I can take
For you and the sake of love
I’m fighting a war inside my head
One that can’t be lost or won
I’m done tryin’ to show you I can change
For you and the sake of love
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6. |
Beating Heart
03:34
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Magnetism is your sword, more than you can control, more than you can afford
The dogs begin to howl and whine, a human sacrifice for animal kind
You’ve got a beating heart in your hands
You’ve got a bloody heart in your hands
You’ve got a broken heart in your hands,
You know exactly where I am
I know exactly where you stand
Driven by forces below, you put a spell on me but not because I’m yours
Thirsty for pleasure and pain: your pleasure, my pain;
Your gain, my soul - break it down
There’s a scent of rose in the air,
There’s a chill in your voice and your hollow stare
There’s a hole in the sky where the midnight sun used to shine
There’s a hole in the place where your beating heart used to lie
You had a beating heart in your hands
You had a bloody heart in your hands
You made a broken heart with your hands
I see your method and your plans
I know exactly where you stand
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7. |
44
04:07
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After two good years and three gone bad,
I was looking for a safe sound place to land
Head in the clouds, feeling second hand, so I took out a 44...
And she said,
I’m a born again virgin, gonna keep it that way til I get that ring,
Gonna keep it that way til I see that bling
‘Cause you’re all the same and only cash is king
The clock is tickin’ and so am I
After so many tries and so many lies
I’ve been there seen it done it, I’m 44
I’m writin’ the book and I hope you’re here to read it
...and then we ordered the wine
After nervous laughs and Filipino Jazz,
The sunset lights on the window danced
Alone with my mind how the seconds passed,
Like hours like days like… ...and she said:
Funny how life takes a toll on us all, in so many ways sets us up to fall
And we can do this all again, if you wanna call.
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8. |
The Visit
04:10
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You came to me in a dream, a sounding board to my screams
Minister from the other side, been years since you were alive
Guru of the heart please help me, she’s torn me apart again
Oh again
Something to believe, I need to see the stars for the milky way
Something to receive, I need to know I’m not alone on this crazy astral plane
All for one and all in vain
Wide awake and back to hell again,
In my solitary confinement I can hear the drop of a pin
Suddenly a hand on my shoulder and I jump right through my skin
Suddenly the smell of roses, you scared the shit out of me
Running free as a child you let me be,
Memories running like a river to the sea
A lifetime of conversation in the blink of an eye
You say it’s gonna be alright and then I see…
Something to believe, and now I see the stars for the milky way
Something to receive, and now I know I know I’m not alone on this crazy astral plane
All for one and one for all; I’ll never take you for granted; I’m tearing down these walls
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9. |
Suddenly
04:24
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Suddenly it’s Tuesday and I’m feeling pretty good.
Suddenly you walk into my view
Tell me that you need me and I’ll help you through the night
All at once there’s nothing except you.
Suddenly it’s Friday and your head is on my chest
Suddenly my eyes are full of tears
All the things I held and lost seem so far in the past
Like it’s been a hundred million years.
I’m feeling so good, I could kick myself
For not believing anybody before
I’m running on fumes, but I’m facing downhill
I really couldn’t love anybody more.
Suddenly, oh, suddenly, I’m in love.
Suddenly, oh, suddenly, I’m in love.
Suddenly it’s Sunday and we’re walking in the park
I see your hand reach up to touch my face
No one ever told me that the sky could be so blue
Or maybe I might just be in this race
Suddenly I’m frightened that this will all end
It’ll all will just spin out randomly
But right now I don’t hear the voices telling me to stop
So I’ll just keep on loving suddenly.
Suddenly it’s Monday and I’ve loved you for a week
Something tells me maybe I am wrong
But I am not a man who believes in destiny
Maybe I have loved you all along
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10. |
Waiting Down the Day
03:37
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Dreaming of a railway platform, waiting for a train
Shades of blue light fall around me, then it starts to rain.
I pick apart a memory that will not leave my head
Of asking you to stay with me and you choosing to leave instead
People there with distant faces looking at the ground
Waiting for a hopeful word or a distant whistle sound
Sudden urge to cross the tracks and run so far away
I run until I see you there inside a glass café
Waiting down, waiting down the day
You smile and wave me over but there’s a teardrop in your eye
I wish you’d stand and run to me but you just sit and cry
I watch you for a long, long time, ‘til someone drops the blind.
I turn to walk away for good… and leave you far behind
Waiting down, waiting down the day
Now I’m at the station, the train’s coming down the track
The light has turned to yellow glow, the rain has turned to black.
I step aboard the railway car, my thoughts seem far away
I say goodbye to a memory that once seemed here to stay.
Waiting down, waiting down the day
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11. |
Great Again
04:08
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Great again great again
Great again great again
Great again great again
The election is here well have no fear
I found a leader who’s a winner and has his own university
The second amendment should be second to none
Taxes are the devil and the war has begun
Building bridges costs money so we’ll build a wall
He says he alone can fix it all
The election is here well have no fear
We know who to blame for economic shame
The Mexicans, the Muslims, the minimum wage
The democratic commies (and all their mommies)
Republicans in the middle (they’re just not right)
The nigger in the white house (he’s just not white)
Send LGBT to Saudi Arabia
Outlaw abortion and sew up the labia
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12. |
Secrets
02:45
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You want the VA to make your pain go away? - Fall back in the line.
You lost your home and your lovely bride? - Fall back in the line.
You came back scarred from Afghanistan? - Fall back in the line.
We put you on a waiting list? - Get back in the line.
So you’ve been denied for mental health? - Fall back in the line.
The pills you need cost way too much? - Fall back in the line.
The doctor said you’d be just fine! - Fall back in the line.
You think someday you might just snap? - Fall back in the line.
The secrets we keep equal the lies we tell
And nothing fits in-between
The truths we tell have all lost their thrill
Secrets kill - Secrets kill
You think you’re owed a benefit? - Fall back in the line.
You think your country cares about you? - Fall back in the line.
You think politicians ever listen to you? - Fall back in the line.
You think that this is ever going to change? - Fall back in the line.
You want to blame me for going to war? - Fall back in the line.
You want to call your senator ‘cause she voted for war? - Fall back in the line.
You want to blame the President for an illegal war? - Fall back in the line.
You want to look in the mirror and blame yourself?
Come to the front of the line.
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13. |
Cold Steel Blue Fire
04:11
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Oh, no you don’t, flash me your badge and your personality
Hell, no you won’t, make a fool of me with your authority
I know I’m not my father’s favorite kid, or a gentle man
But I won’t, I won’t, I won’t
Be pushed around, made to lose my place, be held down anymore
‘Cause I got cold steel blue fire
With a finger on the trigger that can soothe my ire
Cold steel blue fire
Gonna stand my ground, take a look around
I’m cold steel blue fire
No one is better than me,
And I’m strong and free
And I am cold steel blue fire
You owe me this, I paid for it with my blood and toil
I never miss, You taught me how to kill for your dirty oil
I know you’re not, telling me I’m dead to my country now
‘Cause you won’t, you won’t, you won’t,
Push me around, make me lose my place, make me wait here anymore
I had one, then two, then three, then four
Pretty soon I had to get some more
Now I’ve got all the armament a man could ever need
To protect a home and his family
I’m free, I’m free, I’m free
Don’t push me around, make me lose my face, make me kill you here and now
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14. |
Get Away
04:21
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Lying in the dark but the light keeps coming in
How do I start? Where do I begin?
I didn’t want to do it, but he took away my voice
I didn’t want to kill him but I didn’t have a choice
It started with a fight and ended with a scream
A smoke of gray, flash of blue, the rest just a blood-red dream
He simply wouldn’t listen to the voices in my head
That fill my every hour with all the things I dread
They’re coming for me, I’ve got to get away
I ran off to a cabin underneath a stand of trees
Washed my hands beside a stream and fell down to my knees
I slept awhile on cold wood floor and dreamt I was falling
Doesn’t matter what I do, the voices keep on calling
They’re coming for me, I’ve got to get away
If I walk out through that door into the morning blue
There’s nothing left to stop me from seeing this thing through
I hear the bullhorn’s blare, see the flashing red
If I walk outside into the light, I’ll walk until I’m dead
Lying in the dark but the light keeps coming in
How do I start? Where do I begin?
Mama,… I just killed a man
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15. |
Hastings Street
04:57
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HIDE IN PLAIN SIGHT
Outside the Biltmore with the drunks and the whores
I couldn't care less, I just ask for more
I sleep on the sidewalk and wash in the bay
Just trying now to survive the day
I fought in the war, I gave my all
I stood for my country, I answered the call
For all that, I get all this
Homeless with my people, and stoned as piss
I've found my home, I've found my friends
I've lost it all and I've seen my end
There's more to come of my defeat
I'll tell it all on Hastings Street
There's Becky Lynn; she sold her hope
To make a little money just to score some dope
There's Ryan he's on his dying breath
Down on his knees, he scares me to death
Bobby left his home late last week
His brain got fried, now he's a freak
Here I am in the middle of the day
Wondering how I got this way
They call me Shea Freedom.
I'm a soldier of a different class and creed,
yeah, race and breed
Read between the lines, I might not like the fight you'll see
I said the fight you'll see man, the fight you'll see
I've been dodging mortars of darkness sprinting towards the light
trying to overcome my mortal plight. That's right.
I'll be your beacon of the light one day,
Got to figure how to make it out some way
Slay the demons and the fear
Slay the demons and the fear
'cause it's cold out here.
Struggling, man.
Hunting for a place to sleep
and bread to eat, in a bad way
chasing bread, dark skin, careful what I do
I got my hands up, like "don't shoot"
Got my hands up, like "don't shoot."
Don’t shoot.
We all pretend that we're better than this
We all pretend that we give a shit
We all hope that we're worth the wait
But we all know that this is it
Everybody here had something to believe
Someone to love, something to hold
God or country; money or fame
All of it's gone, each one of us the same
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16. |
Something to Believe
07:08
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I guess hiding out on Hastings Street is gonna be the death of me
The red eyed man with the shiny badge is beating down on my brother
And won’t stop to hear his pleas
And now he’s looking my way, as I fumble with my inhaler
It must look like some kind of impaler
While drawing my last breath, he draws his piece
For weary travelers who’ve lost their way, their GPS, their moral compass
For those who’ve stumbled into all the wrong places, for all the right reasons
Well there’s a place that'll leave the light on for you,
It’s looking back at me, it’s all connected
Walking through heaven’s gates, or wherever the hell this might be
The irony’s not lost on me,
That the first soul I see is the one I put down
Oh, six feet feet in the ground.
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